Joys of mornings...

Thanking God I survived another day and thanking him most for a new day,new challenges,new perspectives. My usual morning starts with eating breakfast with hubby and watching television.

Can you guess what I was watching?... hee hee hee!

It is so fun to bring back your childhood routines, though I miss watching "Batibot" and "Sesame Street" I still sometimes do not forget to watch kids shows every morning and indulge with a grab of these awesome dessert.. yummmyyy!!

Believe me, I just ate two pieces of these.

Oh! I nearly forgot, another joys of mornings to live with and perhaps better to let it be something to stock in your mind for the rest of your days... an email I received just the other night saying:

"All things in life are temporary. If going well,enjoy it, they will not last forever. If going wrong don't worry they will not last long either."

have a hot pink day!!!

Back for good...

Yay! it's been ages since I visited my blogspot. I missed doing one albeit I am planning to remove my old post but back of my mind its telling me "No!". Well, it only shows of the back track and changes in my life since the last time I wrote my previews posts.

And look at me now!{picture above :)} I gained so much weight after two years... hee hee hee! I love this changes because this picture taken last month shows how life is constantly changing so fast and without you knowing either your gaining weight or staying sexy as you were, time will erase those painful memories you've had and choose to ponder only positive thoughts.

Repleksiyon...

PaSaLaMaTaN m0 ang mga ta0ng NaKaSaKiT say0... Bakit kaya minsan ang sarap magmahal kahit walang kapalit..? naisip mo na un?kala mo okey lang..pero sobrang hirap; 'to mga tanong..realization nalang; Masarap magmahal hindi ba? Kahit ikaw hindi ka sigurado sa pag-ibig na taong mahal na mahal mo. Minsan iniisip mo nalang na pag dating ng tamang panahon magiging maayos din ang lahat. Sana nga! ng hindi ka naman mukhang tanga na umaasa sa wala. Minsan din ang sarap sarap isipin na minamahal ka ng taong mahal mo..! yung tipong..kayo nalang sana at hindi ang babaeng nakikita mong kasama nya; na masaya at kala ang buong mundo ay kanilang kanila; Minsan din ang sarap bumalik sa nakaraan yung tipong..masaya pa kayo, parang mga batang walang problema..kung meron man parang;against all odds; ang settings; pero may nakabitin parin na tanong..ano kayang nangyari?; pero ang kadalasang kasagutan..e.

1.kasi di pala kami para sa isat-isa;
2.Nagkamali ako sa kanya;
3.iniwan lang nya ko ;
4.may iba na syang mahal; (ito pinakagusto so lahat, hehehehe)
5.niloko lang nya ko;
6.Di ako gusto ng parents nya;
7.ayoko na puro nalang kami away; 8.masyado nya kong sinasaktan;
9.nagsawa na sya sakin;pero ito pinaka masakit;.
10.hindi pala nya talaga ako mahal, (parang panakip butas,) grabehan hindi ba?

Pero kailan kaya natin maririnig na nagpapasalamat ang isang umiibig sa taong
nakasakit at sinaktan sya; minsan naisip din kaya natin na ;kung ano ang kahalagahan ng isang bagay? Yung kailangang bigyan ng halaga habang nandyan pa!minsan kasi saka lang natinnalalaman ang isang worth ng isang bagay pag wala na to satin..! kaya minsan din isipin natin yung mga sinasabi , kinikilos , ginagawa natin kasi hindi lahat ng tao kayang tanggapin kung ano at paano natin ginagawa ang isang bagay..!subukan nating magpasalamat sa kabila ng lahat;

A.kung sinaktan ka nya..magpasalamat ka dahil sya ang dahilan para tumibay ka; (may point ka dun)

B.kung niloko ka nya..patawarin mo at pasalamatan mo..dahil kunghindi sa kanya hindi mo mararamdam ang sakit na pwede ding maramdaman ng iba..a tleast hindimo gagawain sa iba;

C.kung hindi ka nya minahal..pasalamatan mo! dahil atleast kahit papano na-feel mo na minahal ka nya kahit hindi;pasalamat sya dahil ikaw minahal mo sya ngbuong buo;

Minsan kailangan lang natin harapin kung ano man ang nakasakit sa atin..piliting kalimutan..piliting harapin; kung ano ang noon..noon lang yun; iba ang ngayon..!dahil kung nasaktan ka man noon;ngayon magiingat kana at alam mo na kung ano dapat at hindi para hindi masaktan. mahalin mo ang mga taong nakasakit sayo dahil sila ang dahilan para maging matibay ka!para sa susunod di ka na basta basta; dipa dalos dalos. pasalamatan mo ang taong nakasakit sayo..

Minsan pumasok na rin sa isip ko..paano naman iyong nagmamahal ng dalawa? ano ba tlga ang mahalaga sa kanilang mga "SANA DALAWA ANG PUSO KO" ang drama sa buhay...minsan gusto kong itanong sa kanila ito;

Sino ba ang mas mahalaga, ang taong mahal mo o ang taong gusto mong mahalin? ang taong kasama mo buong araw o ang taong iniicip mo bago matapos ang araw?siya bang kasa kasama mo sa lhat ng ginagawa mo o siyang dahilan ng lahat ng galaw at ginagawa mo? sino ba ang mas mahalaga...ungtaong nais mong makasama habang buhay o ungtaong hindi mo makita ang habang buhay kapag wala cya? cno ang mas matimbang...ung taong pag kasama mo'y parang kay bilis ng oras o ung taong tuwing iniicp mo'y parang kay bagal ng oras? ano ang susundin mo...ang dinidikta mo sa puso mo o ang dinidikta ng puso mo syo? sya ba un laging pumapasok sa icp mo o cya un laging laman ng panaginip mo? cno nga ba...ang taong nagpaluha syo, o ang taong nagpunas sa minsang pagluha mo? cno sa kanila...ang taong nagpapatawa syo o ang taong dahilan ng lahat ng iyong emosyon? cno nga bang pipiliin mo???

ANG TAONG MULING NAGBUKAS NG PUSO MO...O ANG TAONG MATAGAL NG NANDOON?

Echoes of Our Hearts... Dedicated to My Other half

Sometimes we close our eyes and just listen to the echoes of our hearts. We all fall in love and there are times when we love so much that we lose ourselves in our own emotions. More often than not, we wonder why there are love that grows and love that grows cold.We would start to search for answers and try to find where love has gone wrong. But in the end, we find ourselves, where we started for we cannot question love when it has its own reasons.Love will always be as it always has been………..,silent, mysterious and deeply profound.Many of us believe that love is forever, that love never dies, only to be disillusioned in the end when we found our hands empty and our hearts longing.We mistakenly have looked at love as a need to be fulfilled.But love is only a gift given to us. We should not hold it in our hands for we never find the strength to let it go, when it decides to leave.We should only embrace its warmth and glow while it last and then freely open our arms, when its time to say goodbye.We all fall in love with someone, we don’t want that feeling to end for it is everything we are, everything that we wanted to be,We pray that love will stay and grow in our hearts.But if it doesn’t then we should never let our lives be taken by it, for life should not end where heartaches begin.There always a reason why we have to move on, when we say goodbye to the feelings that we wanted to stay forever.Let us not wave our hands with a heavy heart, for love will have to set its wings free and find a place where it belongs.We may have lost it but then again, when we close our eyes and listen to the echoes of our hearts, we will hear that feeling resounding silently forever.Then we’ll know that it has never left us, for the good that we have become, because of love will always stay.It will always be there reminding us that we should be thankful and happy, not because, we lost love, but because for once in our lives, that feeling lived in our hearts and made us happy…..

As I watch you exploring your busy world, I could not help but to stare at your face...then flashback exist....

I see myself hurting so much, while you enjoy the moment with your girl... I see many lies and betrayals... I see the rain pouring so hard on me.. I feel cold but you are not here to comfort me... I see the truth--- I see you looking straight into my eyes while saying " Yes, I love her..and that's the reality you have to accept"... I thought the truth will set me free... but why do I feel I'm still trapped?..

...there was silence...

... the flashback did not only make me cry... I bleed instead.

I know, until now you are still keeping her deep in your heart... why can't you see me hurting?.... why cant you look at me the way I look at you?...

why cant you love me the way I love you?

YOU ARE MY HUSBAND- YOU ARE MY LIFE, EVERYTHING THAT YOU DO, AFFECTS MY WHOLE BEING...

... WHEN I FOUND OUT THAT YOU ALREADY GIVE YOUR HEART TO SOMEONE... AND YOU ADMIT IT TO ME WHILE LOOKING STRAIGHT IN TO MY EYES...

... IT DID NOT ONLY HURT ME.... IT KILLED ME

The Dance of Life...

There are two hearts that met in a dance,,that moment was magical...there was a sweet song playing..There was harmony and soon love was in the air...They fell in love and they started building castles in their dreams and promised forever with all certainty..But somehow in the midst of the fun,they got lost in the dance...Something went wrong but they can never do anything..They were just drifting away,their fortress falling apart...There were so many questions but no one had an answer..Then the music stopped and there was silence...

When we truly love someone we give our best and let that person see the pureness of our intention...but sometimes that person makes us cry and hurts us for the wrong reason..That person must have loved us but he has not loved us enough to make him stand for what he truly felt..Now we are faced with seemingly impossible task of FORGETTINGWe have burdened ourselves long enough but we still can't get out of this emotional trap..Let us remember that the more we try to forget someone we love,the more painful letting go will become..Sometimes we never have to take that person out of our hearts at all..For he will always be there no matter how hard we try to drive him away...It isn't his presence that makes forgetting difficult .it is our stubbornness to accept our destiny that aligns forgetting next to impossible..We keep a cold face but deep in our hearts there's still that lingering hope for reconciliation..

Somehow we still believe that we can rekindle small embers and relight the fire in our hearts..thoughts give us hope but it also breeds the seed of loneliness and despair..THE ONLY WAY TO FORGET IS TO ACCEPT AND THE ONLY WAY TO MOVE ON IS TO LOOK FORWARD and let the footprints of the past be blown by the winds of time...Only then our hearts will find a partner in the dance of life and hopefully never get lost again....

Still In The SHADOW

It has been two months since the day I lost my faith and my belief in the promise of eternal love. I hated so much things about me including the way i have loved one person in my life and how he got me blinded to see the reality… the reality that one day he could love another woman aside from me. So much words had been said… yet there are still more left unsaid. Last night, he whispered to me ” Accept it”.. that was one of the hardest thing he asked me to do, how can I accept the reality when everytime I look into his eyes, I see her. How can I easily accept it when you did not promise to end it. How can I accept the reality that she loves you and that you love her too, when you know that there was I..your wife who is hurting.

Someday, I will forget these… the pain, the hurting words from you. And someday I will be stronger enough to accept you and her. It will be hard by now I know but these wont take too long.

Inspite all of these, I am still happy that I love you still….